Keep Positive And Put It Out There
I know what I don’t want.
I know what doesn’t work for me.
But….
…and there is always a but, isn’t there?
It can be so difficult to know what I really do want at times.
And when I think I know, when something leaps out and grabs me, as it sometimes does, there often seems to be a reason why it’s not quite right and I change my mind.
Which is actually a little sad and depressing.
Of course these obstacles, whatever they might be, could actually be self imposed, which happens to all of us at times in our lives.
And life is never easy, that’s a fact.
But I found myself this week listening to positivity from others regarding something that I thought I wanted and for some reason my automatic reaction was to want to fight it. The opinions of friends, their “keep positive and just put it out to the world” attitude, actually challenged me and got me wondering whether I really wanted it after all. Perhaps it was simply the rather unrealistic over-confidence of someone that has already got what I thought I wanted that put me off.
Because it’s never that easy, even when someone tells you that it was for them.
And no-one ever really knows your situation and the issues you face.
Perhaps.
But now I am wondering once again what it is that I want. And if I am finding doubts over something as simple as a relatively supportive comment then maybe I didn’t want it enough in the first place.
So what, exactly, is it that I want?
And why is it so difficult to know?
I have no idea but watch this space.
